Krsnaji’s lessons are to be imbibed, which for me takes time.
How does one know they are progressing on the spiritual path? The idea that I want to know tells me something. It is the ego who wants to know. The heart does not care. Faith in my Gurudev is what moves me ahead. His teachings are sometimes subtle and sometimes like a sledgehammer, but it still can take many exposures before their meanings are grasped.
As my understanding matures, so my journey unfurls, and when additional understanding comes, it unfurls even more. It is only with the teachings of my Spiritual Master that any glimpse of truth and understanding appears. It would be nice and magical if understanding came quickly, but His plan is for me to work hard, to examine my “self,” and to perform my own Sadhana. Only with self-effort may I hope to gain a good footing in Spiritual life.
Most recently, a great lesson has finally taken hold! Even though Guruji has all along given instruction on this, I now know – in an experiential way – Faith my Gurudev is all that is needed. The experience came during my morning meditation and it came with great clarity. As long as I can let God lead, there can never be a misstep. As long as I pay attention, God’s universe will move me along His path for me.
This Truth about Faith is a keystone, When one can rest everything in God, there can be no worry. I am only in charge of my Faith. If Faith wavers then the ego is the driver. If my Faith is steadfast, the path of dharma rules.
There has been no end to Krsnaji’s patience. He has repeated these lessons many times and in many fashions. His lessons are detailed and He will use a variety of examples to pass the knowledge on. When the lesson is over, my work must begin. I must be cognizant as the multitude of situations arise before me and must discern samskara from the reality in front of me today.
My aspiration is to be faithful to His teachings, that I may learn from Him these great lessons and carry them forward, not just by repeating His words but by living His words. My KrsnaGuru, KrsnaKnows, teaches Love. His domain is the Heart. He asks only that we be kind, compassionate, sattvic in nature, and to be our Good Self!
