Continuing from where I left off in my last article, my roller coaster ride continued with this final lap, the test by my Master that I’m about to narrate. As he continued to put me to test at every step I took, I had no idea as to what was in store for me. I could never fathom any of these things that were happening!
Now to return to the main character from the past few articles, my Master’s first student, who I had disliked since our very first meeting. For the first time I was privy to how she was with my master. All I had known of her was what my Master had told me about her. I met her for the first time when she was visiting Bangalore for her birthday to be with my Master. However my understanding of her was limited to our couple of meetings.
So when My Master was in Singapore and he was living at her brother’s place I was of the ‘opinion’ that she will provide my Master with everything and taking care of Him right from making meals to taking him around, etc. However this was my own assumption. But what happened left me completely in a shock. Could not digest as to how one could behave worse than a human being leave aside being a divine? It so happened that she had got all the groceries and other stuff required for my master to make his own meals.
As per any culture you do not invite a guest and tell them you cook and eat for yourself. Coming from Sanatan Dharma our belief is that “Atithi Devo Bhava” (Guest is God). And on top of it He was her Master under whom she used to learn and who had bestowed the most esoteric knowledge to her. Considering all of this it was the most unexpected behavior from her towards her Guru. Because of which my Master did not have any lunch for the time that he was in Singapore. My Master only eats two meals a day and after 6pm he does not partakes of anything. Every time I called to check on Him he would say he had not eaten anything.
I was totally aghast and was extremely upset and was in pain feeling horrible at what was happening. Just the mention of her name would make me go red in anger. I was also helpless as I was living with my friends and on other hand My master would not allow me to meet him. It so happened that my friend’s decided to host my Guru for lunch and they invited him over. My joy knew no bounds and was jumping in madness. I was awaiting for the day he was going to come over. I woke up early in the morning at 5am and went to the wet market to get fish, shrimp, chicken and other stuff which I can offer to my master.
My mom and I took on the cooking along with my friend’s mom and made variety of dishes. I was all dressed and was awaiting my master for the lunch. My excitement knew no bounds. I was looking at the watch continuously. The time seemed not to be moving at all. Finally he arrived and just to see him felt like my heart stopped breathing for a moment with tears rolling down my cheeks. All were amazed to see me like this. Then I made him seated and served him. He ate his first complete meal during that entire stay in Singapore and said he was ‘Trupth’ (satisfied) with the offering and thanked me for feeding Him. I was crying like a child at His feet when he said these words. I told Him, it is he who has graced me and accepted the offering from my end. It is me who was extremely thankful for giving me an opportunity to server Him and it was not the other way round.
On that day I did not feel any hunger left in me. I was feeling totally filled even though I had not eaten anything. I can still experience these wonderful moments of heartfelt joy and other beautiful out of this world state. And today when I look back I can only see how kind my master has been towards me to impart such profound esoteric knowledge and experiences. He has taught me continuously what not to do and how to be like Him and never to stoop down to the level of a crass Human being. Krsna is Krnsa no one can become Him. The only thing I can do is to rise higher and merge in oneness with Krsna. This is not as easy as it seems like. To attain Krsna is not so easy. Even the Vedas and Upanishads cannot know Him. One has to strive for it surrendering the ego at the feet of the Guru.
With the grace of my Master I have been able to pen this most wonderful experience in a string of words. Thank you for reading and do watch out for my next write-up about ‘The Supreme Master – Dattatreya’ coming to me on Jan 1st 2010.
