Are You Seeing God?

Krsnaji teaches that it is you who must see God. The Lord need not “present” Himself to you.

Admittedly, I have wavered from surrender to withdrawal. Maya, (The Lord’s illusory power) is so damn challenging. She can never be defeated, so I must find peace with Her. Inevitably she reveals an object, but how that object is perceived is decided in my mind. Using the intellect, my perception should be dharmic.

It easy to say I can not see or feel God around me, but that perception is a choice. God’s grace is upon all of His creation. If I am led by the ego, then my perception is selfish and self-centered. If I am led by the Pure Intellect, then God is everywhere.

Impatience is an ongoing narrative in this life, it causes me to react from ego and not intellect. If I would slow down then perhaps God may be known to me in each moment. I pray to live in harmony with my impatience. It is a part of this body’s nature, a blessing when it pushes me forward, but it is also the cause of so much anxiety.

Time is affecting me, at this start of yet another decade of my life, my concern is whether I will fulfil God’s purpose for this life. God’s mission. I shall take heed of the adesha (instruction) my KrsnaGuru gave on Krsna Janmashtami, “Go out and do His work!” I pray that I will recognize His mission, that I will see God and act as He requires without interference from my ego. I pray that my thoughts and actions will be correct and according to His agenda.

In Satsang, Guruji teaches the most blessed way to live this life. The path of Love and Devotion seems very easy but one’s ego—inflated, deflated, bold and fearful, adds to Maya’s illusions. Clarity of a Pure Mind is what is needed here.

There is no greater blessing for me than to have the darshan (vision) of my dear Guruji. When He smiles I feel it. It is said that the purpose of our human birth is to know God and meeting my Gurudev has fulfilled that purpose. The true Guru is the Knower of Truth and the One who painstakingly removes our ignorance. I have only to learn from Him.

God is all around, within and outside His creation, and I am squandering this blessed life when I am not seeing Him.